“You’re very easy to love.”
I fought the urge to turn around and see if she was speaking to someone else.
I trust this Beloved friend. She has always spoken truth to me even when it’s uncomfortable. Why would she start lying now? And yet, I can’t fathom the concept. Quirky, weird, damaged, neurotic, deeply flawed me? EASY to love?
The words feel like a tough piece of gristle wrapped around succulent meat. Tough to swallow. Almost impossible to separate one from the other.
Yes. My astro chart makes this concept extraordinarily tough and… as my most magical astro person has shown me, the goal has not been to fix it ( I couldn’t if I tried), but to take the empowering step of managing it.
I was instructed in last night’s dreams and given a pop quiz today.
Where have I made this an identity?
Where have I used this idea that I’m hard to love as a shield, a way of bracing, a way of not risking the intimacy being fully loved?
Where have I weaponized it?
I working through the answers and the ways to come to empowerment around them.
**Please be respectful. I am well resourced. Advice is not wanted.